The Elderly of Leuni D.

Sylus Kurgen · Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 1:23 pm Post subject:

"I was going to go and take care of the paper work on your parents, or at least get the ball rolling for you to fill it out when you're more able to do so." He offered her a reassuring smile and leaned back in for a quick kiss. "Be right back, I promise."

**Shauri** · Posted: Thu Dec 03, 2009 9:07 pm Post subject:

Sha'uri stood outside the door, hand gently placed to open it yet she hesitated. A look from the doctor and she knew it was better to not wait... don't hesitate... push the door open, gently... soft smokey hue's peered inside..

Leuni · Posted: Tue Dec 08, 2009 9:26 am Post subject:

**Shauri** · Posted: Mon Dec 14, 2009 4:33 pm Post subject:

Leuni · Posted: Wed Dec 30, 2009 9:18 am Post subject:

Sha'uri was making her nervous despite the doctor's reassuring tones. It wasn't like her friend to not look at her on purpose and it was obvious that is exactly what Sha'uri was doing, avoiding her gaze.

Even though her friend took her hand in a caring manner, Leun didn't need to be a mind reader to realize something wasn't right. Despite the doctor's explanation about herself and her father, she knew something was being left out.

A few silent moments went by as she digested what the doctor had told her so far. She knew this would happen one day... it just took this to get it through her thick skull that the moment had come; she could no longer care for her parents. It wasn't her fault. She needed to accept it.

Wait.... he didn't say anything about .... and the worst is sometimes saved for last.

The thought hit her like a jet blast from an x-wing... stunned her thoughts until her gaze drifted up to meet the doctor's. She felt her hand squeezing Sha'uri's while the other hand reached for Sylus as if seeking the strength to face the truth while she asked the question.

"What about my... my mother?"

Her breath held ... All she could hear was the thunder of her blood pumping through her veins.

**Shauri** · Posted: Tue Mar 09, 2010 10:45 am Post subject:

Dr. Young took a deep breath, letting it out slowly during this long pregnant pause. There was no other way of putting it, no need to delay it any longer.

"I'm sorry, Miss Dokara... there were complications with her. We suspect she'd been having minor strokes and heart attacks often, so minor they were easily overlooked, which would explain her mental and physical digression. She had a significant one just after we brought her in here. I'm sorry, we could not pull her out of it. Miss Dokara, your mother is dead."

Leuni · Posted: Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:10 am Post subject:

"Miss Dokara, your mother is dead."

She felt her hand go numb squeezing Sha's hand tighter and tighter, waiting on the words she knew were coming. Her breath was held for a long moment. How Sha'uri had sat there and kept holding her hand through this, Leun couldn't fathom. All she heard were those words echoing in her mind... an empty chasm of thoughts frozen by the words from the doctor.

It wasn't his fault, he was only doing his job, but Leun wanted to rip those words right out of his mouth.

She remembered feeling herself rock back and forth, barely aware that she whispered words of denial, anger rising towards the doctor, gaze desperate and searching for a way out of the room.

She must've looked crazed...

She remembered all she wanted to do was find her mother, to prove to herself that the woman was still alive. That they were wrong.

"Liar!!" she lunged for the doctor. "She's alive!"

Vaguely she remembered Sha'uri and the doctor grabbing hold of her to keep her in place. She faught them, didn't feel the prick of the needle in her arm. She kept struggling to get out of the room, heard her voice from a hundred parsecs away screaming to see her mother, that she was still alive.

She fought them until her voice waivered and she felt her whole body go numb, her vision blurred and the room darkened as Leuni fell to the influence of the sedative.

Leuni · Posted: Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:40 am Post subject:

Leuni's Journal
Entry 1:

It's been two days since I've been here in the ward. I met with Dr. Ima Darling yesterday, who is really a darling person even though she is very logical, she seems to do so with warmth. She managed to put me at ease about my reaction to my mother's death. I still feel I owe Dr.Young an apology. I haven't seen him since then, though if he's got a shiner on his cheek, it wouldn't surprise me.

She also suggested that I start a journal and put down my feelings. I think because we didn't talk much yesterday. What was I supposed to say?

I was still angry over my mother's death even though the doctor was right, there was no one to blame. Even so, I think she's wrong. I blame myself for not getting my mother in sooner.

Yet I wonder if that would've made much difference. Maybe I'm just angry because my last years with her were so... interrupted. And I feel guilty that because of those years, I feel almost relieved by her death at the same time.

Will I be that way when my father goes?

I felt a part of me die with my mother... I wonder what will be left of me when he's gone. They were all I had.

Entry 2:

The Darling doctor read my journal. She politely admonished me for thinking any of this was my fault.

She also said that I should focus on why I wrote that they were all I had... and why I used past tense in the word Had. I've been sitting here thinking about that and I've come to realize they are not all that I have.... and that I know that. Sha'uri has been a good friend and Sylus is wonderful. I realize we all die some day, and I may still be alive when I lose my friends. Dr. Darling asked me how I would accept that if it happened. What was it about other people dieing that caused me to feel so angry. I think I was angry because it meant realizing my own mortality.

I think that it's in accepting my own mortality that I can learn to accept it in others. I have to. It's life. We all die.

I think I was angry, too, because I felt so robbed of what I wanted things to be like. I felt cheated, abandoned, ignored, ... most of all.. left behind. Dr. Darling wanted me to reflect on that and to find some way to come to terms with myself. I think I know why. I think it's because no matter what happens we can only control ourselves, our perceptions, beliefs and reactions. And if we've ... I've done all the things I know my heart tells me is right, then I will have lived as I was meant to live, for myself and others.

Dr. Darling was right. This journal thing does help sort things out.

**Shauri** · Posted: Thu Jul 08, 2010 10:39 am Post subject:

"I think you're well enough to go home now." Dr. Ima Darling replied as she signed the forms that would release Leuni from the hospital. "Just take it easy, try to have some fun. I think it would do you some good to get out and mingle a little. I'll give you a week extension from work, but after that, you should push yourself to get back to it. And if you need me, I'm always available. You have my numbers."

The Icesoran tilted her head as she smiled, antenea shifting as if to enhance that last part. Then her eyes suddenly widenend. "Oh! I almost forgot... I changed your medicine. It should help alleviate the nausea. In fact, you took it this morning already."

Dr. Darling's smile deepened with wonder. "We found out why you were feeling so sick to your stomach. You were definitley on the wrong meds. Of course, my reaction would've been far more accute, but that's because I have far more Icesoran DNA then you do."

The doctor let that one trail, watching Leuni for a moment to see her reaction, though not waiting too long or that Leun had much time to think too much about it. Ima knew the woman would have many questions, so she continued on to try and answer them.

"It is faint, but enough that it gave you reaction. I think perhaps at least ten generations ago, your ancestors mated with an Icesoran.. which is virtually unheard of, especially that far back. I do not know how this was possible but somehow its there. DNA testing was done to help pinpoint a more refined match for your meds. These should work better for you now."

After answering Leun's questions, the Doctor walked her back to her room and left Leun to pack her things and get ready to leave. Then the doctor moved to find Sha'uri and have a conversation with her.

Leuni · Posted: Thu Jul 08, 2010 8:58 pm Post subject:

Leuni's Journal - Entry 3:

Dear Journal,

The good doctor released me today. She says she would like me to rest up a few more days before going back to work, or leaving the station. She wanted to make sure the medicine would work okay for me even though she said she was sure it would be fine. The medicine is for depression. I must admit, I can tell a difference in this new stuff. The cramps and nausea I had before with the other antidepressants are gone. It's wierd the reason for it. I still can't believe it, I'm still in shock. I don't even know if I want to write it down in my journal.

No, really, I should.

Okay, I will.

Some of my ancestors were Icesoran!

There, I just wrote it in stone, so to speak. Dr. Darling ran DNA testing to confirm a reason for the reaction, which aparently only Icesorans get reactions like that, as far as she or any other person in the medical field knew. Or something like that. Not that the reaction was terrible or anything it was just that I had a reaction like that. She said it made her antennea twitch all funny when she first learned the reaction and so she had a test done.

I am baffled by the results. I could hardly think straight to ask her any questions beyond when do I go back to work and do I have any hidden antennea. She laughed. After ten or more generations watered down by other non Icesoran elements, she was pretty sure there were no hidden antennea. She did say I might be an ideal candidate for DNA manipulation to get them though.

I wonder which side of the family this was from.... I wonder how Sylus will take the news....

Sha'uri walked me home since Sylus was busy preparing the ship. She wanted to talk to me anyway. According to her, things were a little wierd around the station lately and that I should be very careful and not go anywhere alone. She didn't even like me going back to the apartment by myself but I told her I'd be fine. She didn't go into detail but said that some very strange murders had happened recently.

She also told me about a party she heard about next monday at Crescents. It's in honor of Jezora and Drake.

Wow... Drake's in charge of station security now! I'll have to go congratulate him and buy him a round of... what was it he always had.. smokes and coffee. And Jezora, too. I don't know her as well. Forgot what she usually orders but it's not usually as tame as coffee and cigarettes.

For now, I'm going to go through my parents stuff and decide what to do with it. I think I'll give Sylus a call first.

Oh, wait.... I saw my father today. Before I left, I went to see him. He seemed to look better, more color in his skin and I got the feeling he was more connected with things in the room. It was like he was listening. Not sure what they're doing for him, but I was glad to see him shifting his gaze and even snort at times that seemed like he was actually trying to say something instead of just making noises. Maybe he wasn't though. Or maybe ... well, I told him about the Icesoran blood and he snorted a rather surprised snort. And then snot came out of his nose, so I helped him wipe it up. Maybe it was a reaction to what I said. Or maybe it was just a reaction to the snot build up in his nostrils. Maybe it was both.

Okay, now I'm going to call Sylus.. and start cleaning up the apartment.